Wednesday, February 01, 2006

85. I WANT TO LIVE BUT


I want to live but in case I must die I just want to let you know how much I loved you. You all know who you are… Just be happy that we know each other, that we spend time together, and shared many memories. Don’t you cry for me when am gone. In my sadness and loneliness, trough my tough times, and after all I was… HAPPY!

My parents Anitín y Juanín who already passed away… Love you forever. My gratitude for all that you gave to me. See you in heaven!

My beloved son Roberto Juan… Am so proud of you. You are the best thing that I ever done. I have faith because of you. My heart and soul will always go on inside you. Just fight and work it out to accomplish all your goals. Don’t let anyone take away your future. I have faith in you. You can do it! I love you, and like you said: “I Love you for ever and ever.”

My children’s Anthony, Jocelyn, Wanda, among others… You were a ray of joy and happiness in my life. I truly loved you all like my own children’s. A piece of me will be with you always. Am very proud to be like a mom to all of you.

Roberto, Robertito’s dad… Am sure you know how much I always loved you. And you know that I still do. Shit happens! Life goes on. But I always will have faith in you. The power to enhance and change your life is inside you. Search for it and accomplish your goals. You still can!

My dear sister Mayla… Gosh! I love you deeply. You always be a true friend. Like a mother to me! May God bless you always!

My niece, Maylita Sofia… I love all my nieces and nephew but among them all I always feel something special for you. You are so intelligent and mature. So strong and always knows what to say or do. Am very proud of you! I love you as much as your mother loves me plus.

My dearest nephew and godson Ivan Carlos… Maybe I’ll never show it to you but you are very special to me and I always loved you. Am very proud of you. You have been thought tough time but you always have the strength to over come everything. A piece of my heart stays with you!

My friends, especially Nellie and Carmen… You more than friends you are like sisters to me. You were always with me through my joy and sadness. I truly love you!

My cyber friends, specially Edin Rolando “DIFFONO,” Eduardo “COCODRILO,” Roberto “EL EXPECTADOR,” Freddy Eduardo “COOKIE MONSTER…” No matter how far we are you were always there to lend me your helping hand. Thanks for your time and patience. For every word. But must of all am thankful because you all can see the true Annie behind the steel. I do love you, thanks!

Michael, my forever “STEELHEART…” I still love and miss you so much. Losing you was like the death of a very close relative. But more painful because I always knew you were still alive but I can never had the chance to reach up to you one last time. Chely, you never ask me for forgiveness but I already forgive you. I hope you can forgive me too. If you read this some day, I just ask you to write a poem just for me…

Jose Miguel, “JOY…” I trusted you! I believe in you! You betray me! You broke my already broken heart! I lose my faith in love! I lost my way! Still, you help me when “they” turn their backs on me. You give me strength and reassurance in times of uncertainty and am thankful for that. I love you free, without selfishness. That’s why I let go… I wish you happiness and may all your dreams came true although they are going to be with someone else. I forgive you…

For all the other who passed through my life but I didn’t mention… You are also part of my life and I grateful for that. You’ll be in all my prayers!

Love you all!
See you in heaven!
Good bye!


Ana S. Goyco Fayetteville, North Carolina 4/octubre/2002 Steel♥Girl Copyright © 2002


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